Ummm…ok how do I say this?
Most people would consider me as a shy person. That said, I have this fear of being humiliated in a room full of people I don’t know. But yesterday in yoga class, for the first time in my life, the thing I feared the most happened. I was moving into Reverse Warrior pose, and… a quick “prrrrup”.
I was mortified! My mind grinded to a halt. My yogic, calm trance was interrupted by a supreme embarrassment.
“Did that just happened?” Yes, that… just… happened! Holy crap!
“Oh please please please I hope no one heard it!”
I know it was a little audible, but NOT smelly (thank goodness!). I peeked to my right …and left, everyone looked serious and focused on themselves. It seemed like no one noticed. I felt relieved! I couldn’t believe and totally did not expect that! I kept breathing, held my pose, and quickly my embarrassment passed. Then I started giggling in my head. 🙂
With 15 minutes left to go in class, my paranoia set in.
Were they just trying to be mature by not reacting to it? What if they actually heard it?
I tried to glance at everyone’s faces to see if they are secretly laughing – they still looked serious. I tried to compose myself during the “Corpse Pose”. While everyone looked so relaxed, my mind was screaming and getting paranoid. OMG! What if it was loud enough for them to hear it. I can never show
my ass I mean my face in this class ever again. Lol!
After class, the lady next to me started a conversation with me about some random topic while rolling up our mats. It seemed like she didn’t hear anything at all. So yeah, that calmed me down a bit.
I know some people wont do yoga for that reason. I remembered my uncle’s friend who’s a yoga instructor told him that “it” does happen. Yoga poses can really make you escape winds. What do you think all that pushing, pulling and stretching is doing? Removing toxins by sweat, breath and yes, farting. LOL! I didn’t think it will be a big deal. I was confident it will not happen to me, until it happened to me!
I don’t know what possessed me to write about this topic on my blog. I hope you don’t judge me after this. It took a lot of guts and courage for me – to claim something so embarrassing. I just want to keep it real here on my blog. I don’t intend to just share only the good stuff though – how good I feel about myself after workouts, eating right,… etc. My life isn’t always happy and glamourous. I’m only human and like others I have bad embarrassing days too.
Yes, I’m still mortified when I think about it, then I saw this video on my Facebook feed – what a perfect timing! It’s too funny but this alleviated my anxiety a bit. It reminded me that “we’re all human, and that the ego is what creates embarrassment.”
So there you go! Your turn!
Spill: Has this ever happened to you? Do you have an embarrassing yoga/exercise story? What yoga poses make you “toot”? 🙂
Don’t be afraid to share. We’re all friends here! I love yoga and I’m going back to class again this week! If you ever happen to be in the same class with me, don’t be afraid to place your mat near mine. 🙂